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Unedited Draft: The Final Chapter

6/9/2018

FIGHT WITH EVERYTHING YOU'VE GOT!

Drake has to take responsibility and make life work after a life-changing event!

The Final Chapter: 4300 words (unedited)
A few teaser paragraphs - 1613 words

Everything in your life happens for a reason.

You're responsibility is to look at these things in your life and ask the question "Why Now?".

I don't accept that I am what I am and what situation I find myself in, and believe that where I find myself in life is my destiny and what I'm doomed to be. I don't accept this I'm fighting. Maybe not in the right way, but every day is a step into a direction, a step closer to something bigger. I'm always fighting, physically and emotionally. I'm struggling, screaming, scratching and kicking of pain and crawling at those weaknesses to stop them. Some days I win, some days'I don't, but each and every day I get back up and move forward with my fists clenched towards the battle and struggle. I fight with everything I've got to overcome those weaknesses, dealing with what happened to me, dealing with a body that's not working like it use to.

Just be the best you, break through your fears. That is the brick wall to your comfort zone. If you break down that brick wall, your comfort zone expand. People that say "Step out of your comfort zone", stuff them. Expand your comfort zone. There are no boundaries. Everything in this world can be part of your comfort. Just break down the walls.

You need ACTIVATION ENERGY to start the change, to start to get out of bed, to start to move beyond the 4 walls of home. That's the key to create any change. It's the activation energy to start the initial GO! Then, over time, there's a chain reaction and that allows you to keep going.

You have to act on your passion, you have to act on your inner drive. Don't let negativity and feelings of failure stay inside of you. You have to know what to do with them, you've got to know how to make them work to get what you want. Don't believe the bullshit you feed yourself.

You want to improve, you want to get better? You want to change your current situation? You've go to start here, now!

Everybody at some point of their lives, to be successful have to JUMP. Jumping is the hardest thing for people to do, but you have to jump. If you never jump, you will never be successful. When you first jump, there's a 99.9% possibility that you might get hurt, but eventually you land on your feet and you can start to run. It starts with a jump. You've got to jump.

No matter how painful it is, I've got to keep going because I have a passion and focus.

If you don;t have goals you get used by people with goals. I am someone who's clear about what I want. I have a list with a 101 things that I want to do, but I focus and make the first my priority. If it works for you, start with the "easy" ones first, but start working through your list.

Delete all the negativity in your mind and focus on what makes you feel great. Focus on how much you achieved over the last week, focus on the people that you love, focus on your ability to change your life at any given time!

Focus on the positives things and be grateful!

Your passion and goal might be something way out of reach, something that you can't even comprehend of achieving, but let it be a goal. Don't worry about the in-between's . When something is crazy and you believe it's out of reach, it's crazy, but you still do it if you have the drive in you.

Believe you can and you're halfway there, you've tipped the scales.

Every single person is designed by the Divine with special talents and abilities that if you develop them to a certain point, you can accomplish anything you want in life. Everyone is genetically structured to do something superb, to do something full of joy, to do something well and to get great satisfaction from it.

There's no capability difference between yourself and someone you believe to be an ultimate role-model of success. The only difference is that they learned to use their mind and body with more power on a consistent basis. They learnt to use what they have effectively. The know something consciously doesn't matter. You do some things without even being aware of doing it. Successful people taught themselves to guide their mental focus into a direction of success. Whatever we concentrate on consistently and strive to achieve, we can master.

Reassure yourself that you can do it, reassure yourself that you can make the right decisions, reassure yourself that no matter what the difficulty, you can figure it out. Take it a minute at a time, a week at a time, a month at a time. You will achieve what you strive for in your life when you are confident in achieving the goal. There isn't anything you can't walk away from, there isn't any challenge you can't overcome. Have that believe in yourself.

The hard part is to get over the obstacles in the beginning. We develop habits in 21 days. It will be engraved in your blueprint if you do something for 21 days consecutively. The hardest part for anything is the first 5 days. Once you get over that, things becomes much easier for you and then you're on a path of succeeding in what you've started. The fear disappears, the anxiety disappears, the stress goes away.

To get a space shuttle launched, is the part that use the most fuel and energy.. That's where the most effort and energy is required and we get caught up in the trap thinking that that's the energy and effort required through the whole process, and that's not the truth. Once a space shuttle is in space there's basically no effort to keep on moving. It will become easier for you. You will adapt. Its a matter of getting over that fear in the beginning to get to the point where it's engraved into your blueprint and you continue on autopilot. The conscious become subconscious.

When I start to write, when I have a blank page in front of me. The first half an hour writer's block is reality, in my face and then I break through. Then I'm on a roll. I ask myself where are all these thoughts coming from, it's unbelievable. I write a thousand words in a short period of time, jotting down scenes I've never even thought of before. Usually I have everything set out, a framework available from which I can source information, a scene or something small I can elaborate on. If this happens I have to pull myself away because I have to go to sleep and really struggle with reason why my body needs to rest because I'm on a roll. That's how life is. Once you get involved in something, you switch to autopilot. I start thinking and elaborate on the most amazing stuff, higher than my normal thinking margin. Beginner-authors don't experience this kind of writing.

People look from the outside and see you as a very successful person. They wonder "How is he doing it?". They won't get there if they don't immerse themselves into the process you have to have complete control over. Successful people are not made of something different, they are flesh and blood like any other person. Life is more about conditioning and routines and stepping out of comfort zones. It is about genetics. People are in doubt of certain gifts and qualities but many successful people wish they had qualities of a person that has not reached certain heights in life. No one is perfect in this world. Why? You can't be on this quest to be perfect. You will fail.

You have your goals and dreams. It's all about the approach. Instead of starting, taking action, you sit on the sideline. You wait for a contract, a break or guarantee. You wait for a map of the road you have to follow, of every step you have to take. If you have a map, every step is predictable and very safe. You feel that you don't want to jump into the uncertainty and the unknown. You think of everything that can go wrong and you are stuck in this painful emotional state. You're in limbo instead of progressing and expanding. You are always doubting yourself. The fact that you don't show any progress burns you up from inside. On which number of days into the process do you experience these shitty feelings? You put your purpose in life on hold and it gets worse and worse. You have your own conscious plans but you see the pitfalls more clear than the road itself. You have to remember that your long term precise vision does not exist. We live in an every changing world that develops so quickly that you have to be aware of the pace and keep up with it. Not a single person know exactly what's going to happen, and how they are going to achieve their goals. You should have general vision. You must know that along the way you will encounter many obstacles. No smooth road is guaranteed. You will stop somewhere along the line because small bumps will be overwhelming. Just take the first step after you came to meet with an obstacle. Just start again. Eventually you will build momentum and it makes the following step easier and the steps will get bigger and it will become easier again.

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Unedited Draft -Excerpt: Chapter 21 -

1/9/2018

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Surge of the Seismic Wave

Chapter 21: 3644 words (unedited)
A few teaser paragraphs - 512 words

“Is it really necessary that you confess and put the cards on Nicole’s table today love? The first time she meets me and you want to let the cat out of the bag, full on, to make plain? Don’t you think it’s more appropriate for her to get to know me as a friend of your’s before you dump your life’s latitude on her and the twins, and the two of us, might subconsciously have to participate in the surge of the seismic wave?”

“No babes. I don’t want to live a undercover, secluded, cloak-and-dagger life when it comes to the twins. I owe it to everyone close to me, including my family to know what course my life has taken. I never, in my wildest dreams thought that the Divine will send a man after the million affirmations “Everlasting true love arrive on my doorstep”. Never in a million years I thought I need to be more specific, asking for a woman crossed my mind. But I’m glad I didin’t. I always knew that you need to be specific but it never crossed my mind that my lifetime partner might be a same sex partner. I never thought that it might be part of my blueprint”.

Andrew didn’t know that he can have such a connection with another man. He said he’s not ready for another relationship but if the Divine send him the right person you don’t choose, stuff just happen. He thought he might meet another lady who will stay his girlfriend and they might live a life between 2 houses and sleepovers can be arranged. He couldn’t put his heart on the line and go through contingency and risk that it might be doomed with complexity and intricacy as results. Before our journeys start to move in parallel, a second marriage was no option but he made it clear that he has hope and its part of his prayers that I’ll say yes if he ask my hand for life.

2100 words later

“I’m all distracted and agitated about your x-wife’s bat of an eye, sixty second husband my love”
“Don’t let him get to you babes” while Andrew stand behind Drake, give him a kiss on the back of his neck while giving him a deep shoulder massage while he sits on the couch busy writing a blog. “Life is too short to stress yourself with arseholes who don’t even deserve to be an issue in your life, and that goes for Nichole too; making ludicrous and nonsensical evaluations and substitute her solitary emotional controversy her reality. I have to sit back and see how the twins observe and absorb this kind of behavior. If her moral conduct don’t take a turn to a confident clear-cut I’ll be forced to intervene and negotiate a deal where the twins have an example of stability, here in our setting where there’s tranquility but yet the necessary discipline”

"And beside all the negative things... Look at your sexy feet babes. Promise me that you'll climb into bed with me with that sexy pair of feet of yours?"

I tilt my head right back and give him a big seductive smile.

"They are all yours tonight my love. Do with them whatever you want to. I'll lay back and let go of control. Not only my feet, My whole body if you'd like"

Another 1000-odd words to follow

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Unedited Draft - Excerpt - Chapter 19

30/8/2018

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Chapter 19: 2433 words (unedited)
A few teaser paragraphs to sketch the scene

Jeez, this is a nice hotel. They recognize his vehicle and nearly opened the driver’s door for a valet service. I wind down the window and the attendant saw Andrew laying on the passenger seat and gave a smile when he heard a few snores.

I whisper to the attendant: “We are here to pick up some clothes” Ever polite the attendant whispered back “Follow me Sir. I’ll show you where to park, close to the elevator” and I reply only by moving my lips because I heard his breathing patterns changed and I knew he’s waking up, Thank You!

I love surprises. I want him to wake up next to the elevator and a How did you manage to find the place so quick and easy babes!

I misjudged his sleeping-persona! A bomb wont wake him. I had to shake him a few times and give him a few cheeck-kisses before he shown reaction.

“Wow babes. We are here. And I see Thomas must’ve shown you the way in?”

Oh my word, a thousand thoughts are rushing through my mind. Is this a regular thing? Maybe I’m not the first man he fancied? “Yes my love. Thomas said this is where he let all the men park that come to visit you”. I’m waiting for a reaction.

1500 words later

“It looks like the perfect designer house in a magazine love. I’m amazed. The view throughout the whole penthouse is immaculate.”

“Let me introduce you to the main suite. You’ll experience the energy is extremely dense in this space. This is where all my ideas and techniques originate and this is where I had my first fantasy, hoping that you’ll agree on a first date and waking up to the most beautiful man walking earth. I’ve never had any sexual fantasy that involved a man, but you made it happen. I can’t get rid of the idea of looking into your eyes with you sitting on top of my naked body. Beside all of the hardcore thoughts, I bet you’ll really enjoy the view.” When we walked through the door of the main suite I saw, for the first time in my life, perfection in a space where you spend the most important part of your day, your bed.

You walk into a thick glass wall with a 45 degree angle with waterfall running from the top of the whole 4 or 5 meters glass, creating a water curtain through which you can see the 180 degrees view of city. You hardly hear the water. As you walk around the glass wall you walk into a fresh open space of bedroom with a small lounge in the corner. The water curtain serve as a headboard for the super king size bed. Instinctively I want to jump on the bed but I had to walk closer to the seamless doors. As I walked closer to it it automatically opened onto a huge patio. I walked up to the edge and looked back onto the main suite. I’m stunned.

I left Andrew behind because I’m so excited to experience this space. I’m like a child who saw a playpen after being locked indoors for years. Andrew walked to up to me, standing with his legs spread apart touching the side of my legs and fold his arms around me. He gave me a quick kiss, and pulled back his head and looked me in the eye. “I’m in love with you Mr Henderson”. I release his body that I clasped around his hips and put my arms on his shoulders while holding his head in my one hand.

“I love it when you touch me like this babes”

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Excerpt: Chapter 6

26/8/2018

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#ShadesOfGay Quotes - Excerpt: Chapter 6
“If you’re not living on the edge, you’re taking up a little too much space”

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Excerpt: Chapter 16

22/8/2018

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“Faith is confidence in what we hope for, and assurance about what we do not see”

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EXCERPT: CHAPTER 18

20/8/2018

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#ShadesOfGay Quotes - Excerpt: Chapter 18
“Your circumstances reveal you to yourself. Where you are right now; thats you. If you want something different: Improve you. Be devoted and redress your vision. This is what fuels your spirit and flair up enthusiasm with no limits”

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Unedited Draft: The Final Chapter

FIGHT WITH EVERYTHING YOU'VE GOT!

Unedited Draft -Excerpt: Chapter 21 -

Surge of the Seismic Wave

Unedited Draft - Excerpt - Chapter 19

Excerpt: Chapter 6

Excerpt: Chapter 16

EXCERPT: CHAPTER 18

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